My intention and goal is to send out to my readers a blog post every week. Unfortunately a few weeks ago, due to illness I was unable to do this. I fought with myself, fought again and then fought some more. I couldn’t let go of all that I had to do, my commitments, and it was driving me crazy. Even though I was in bed, supposedly trying to rest and get better, my brain wouldn’t stop churning away. It got so bad, I was still ill a week later. But along the way, I had to learn to let go.
I think part of why I wasn’t healing was because I was carrying around all this negative energy. In fact, I know that was the reason. There was nothing I could do about my to do list, my blog post, not to mention the state of my house, but it was really getting to me.
I had to figure out a way to let go and just concentrate on me and getting better. What really turned it around was realising what my true priorities were and the bigger picture. And that for now, I had to come first. Now for a mum, that is something we sometimes forget to do or don’t even consider. Can it be about us and just us?? YES IT CAN!!!
I went back to the drawing board, went back to basics, and gave myself permission to look after just me for a few days and not think about anything else. Now I was lucky in that I have my super husband Cuan Mulligan to support me. He was great and took the kids to nursery, picked them up and put them to bed. Yeah, he’s great 🙂
For me it was a huge awakening that I do need to come first at times and I need to let go of my many hats that I put on and carry round in my Mary Poppins bag. I need to be healthy both physically and mentally to do what I want to do and have the life I want for me and my family.
What are you holding onto that needs letting go? We sometimes get so focused on the now, we forget about the tomorrow. We get so focused on others, we forget about ourselves and our needs.
I would love to hear what you are letting go, or even what you can’t let go.